Memories Asunder

memoriesasunder-bookmark“I’ve been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
The testaments they told
The moon and its eclipse
And Superman unrolls
A suit before he lifts
But I’m not the kind of person that it fits” 
(The Chainsmokers: Something Just Like This)

Memories Asunder was the title I gave to an original art calendar I created in New Zealand in 2004. I was inspired by my travels to the locations featured in The Lord Of The Rings and the strange alchemy this application seemed to ignite.

While participating in the debate around Frodo and Sam’s relationship, I learned a few things on the side: Elves and Hobbits are essentially the same thing to do with a mixed tribe –  but Hobbits deemed it a silly legend (what would an Elf-lady see in a house-slave, so to speak), hence Sam’s unusual longing for Elves being resolved in the birth of his daughter. However, this choice to physically regenerate the link to Elvish cultures in Middle-earth  obscured the true nature and object of his “Elf” longing (or dor as we call it in Romania), which had been more obvious during the Quest. But it is not kept a secret for long, as the daughter figures it out and reforges that link for the reader to remember. Throughout Tolkien’s books, emotional as well as intellectual and spiritual connection is “the true hero,” so this is why Superman (the hero) cannot wear anyone else’s “suit” except the image created for him by the beloved’s vision. The teachings of the High Elves messed with this inner knowledge as they got pushed off-center by their identification through “proximity to the Light.” Basically, they ascended to legendary status by placing great importance on their mentors. But the mentors only give you a general idea of godliness as representing what is good, mentally; it lacks the personal perspective or rather the inside vision of Love Divine (the Perfect Human Being or Soul Mate). Taking this inside vision out of the mix eventually leads to a complete reversal of good and evil, as people attempt to secure outside approval, equating God with fame and their own prejudice. It was not true Elves the Ring War was waged against, or lesser cultures, but against those who were manipulating their initiates into a Light imbalance. This brings in a contradictory but redeeming “conscious sin” concept, the device through which training true Elves was originally set in motion. Elves are represented by their joyful union with their respective mates. The mistake I made initially was to approach the characters as ideal, meaning as if they’d already known inside, irrespective of their time and culture – yet it seems this knowledge is only possible once the true Elvish standard is applied.

After drawing six landscapes to represent the twelve months of the year, I associated two different quotes to each, selected by a friend from her works to represent the “voices” of the two Hobbits. To find out more about this project and unexpected reversals, see my Middle-earth gallery. For now, the goal is emphasize the strange disconnection in the landscape which, in spite of the title I gave this project, I totally overlooked at the time. The number 6 is not entirely accidental here, as it relates to another symbol many believe is perfect but which in truth drains energy from the believer and promotes an off-center approach to ascension: the Flower of Life.

1. Memories Asunder, 2004. Ink, pencil, watercolour, oil pastels, charcoal; QuarkXPress.

In late 2012, a much different time, I came across Gary Osborn’s book and related website dealing with the theory of the tilted Earth Axis and its effects of conflict, separation between eternity and linear time – which is when many things started making sense, that had been largely unconscious until then. For example, several photographs I took in New Zealand were set up in such a way that suggests this information, though I had no idea what I was doing. I was aware that many true spiritual partners were seeking to reconnect, and that the link was a mythical bridge described like a rainbow. My early childhood experiments included accessing this bridge via Egyptian symbolism, which left a lasting impression. I had also discovered Norse mythology in my teens. So it was a matter of slowly piecing the puzzle together. Osborn offers many examples of the transmission of the Axis knowledge throughout time, in his book. Here I apply this theory to my own works, and take it further by scanning popular culture for similar, more or less unconscious happenings. Lately it has begun to tie in with science publications, as well – especially on the topic of asteroid impacts and weather cycles.

2. Ma’at, 2010. I used ancient Egyptian mural painting techniques. Unfortunately, the context in which I attended the painting lessons was influenced by a latent racist agenda and by sexist viewpoints. They taught a version of imposing “rational order” from on high, on the so-called “lower reality”… the usual formula for justifying oppression. Such upper class privilege-bias goes unquestioned by modern day philosophy teachers, who see the ideal without its channel. But that doesn’t preclude us from taking different approaches to studying Egypt and relating to its “mysteries.” Something to point out is that this image of Ma’at, apart from looking distinctly Native American, resembles modern magazine covers (celebrity worship). However, the Egyptian role of Ma’at and the English pronunciation of the name point to “my heart” as opposed to idolatry. It might seem an ambitious leap to make there, but the English language is international nowadays, so it creates a key to another world-spanning time (another example would be Thoth = Thought). So the path to attaining this ideal is not in the image, but in one’s heart…


“As the symbolism and conceptions behind the Raising of the Djed, the Crucifixion and Ma’at all appear to suggest, all this points to a long-forgotten human desire to raise the Earth’s axis back to its rightful position so that we are re-connected again to God.”

“As mentioned, it appears that the ‘Raising of the Djed’ (axis mundi) was the same theme that had been written into the Gospels as the device of the tilted (carried) and then ‘raised up Cross’ on which Jesus was crucified and from which he was then able to enter the Heavenly Kingdom. It is a fact that the powerbrokers of the Church chose some Gospels over others which they omitted and also altered the Gospels they chose to suit their own ends, and so the irony here is that it is also possible that the Church adopted the ‘believed’ IDEAL, favourable conditions associated with an upright axis, that was believed could take us away from all the misery associated with Earth changes involving earthquakes, floods etc., while at the same time suppressing any mention that the Earth is actually tilted and suppressing anything associated with the original messianic mythos related to the universal ‘resurrection god’, who in his own resurrection also returns the axis to a vertical position so as to bring an end to these global calamities and for the reasons given above. These powerbrokers had to omit this element because it would reveal that the Earth is indeed tilted and not perfect.” (Gary Osborn)

3. The Garden Under The Graveyard Bridge, 2006, Auckland Cemetery. 


“From my research into these references and the cross-referencing of significant data relating to them, one is compelled to look into the possibility that long ago something dramatic happened to the Earth which caused it to tilt – almost causing the death of the human race and everything on the Earth. All this would explain why the angle of 23.5 degrees is referenced in sources that express both themes – i.e., illumination and enlightenment, and also death – meaning the near death of the human race due to the catastrophe that had once befallen the Earth, and could again, or so it was/is believed. The theme of decay, war, conflict and ruin, (imbalance) in which this angle can also be found repeatedly, appears to be associated with the symbolic “death” of the human race as a whole, in that man’s present condition is that his direct line with the Creator has been “severed” by the tilt of the Earth, and so only those who have become enlightened and have been able to attain that link and maintain it by remaining balanced and centred in mind and body, can pass on through the “Hall of Judgement” as was once believed and make it into heaven, and so perhaps reverse this situation for all by presenting themselves as an example.” (Gary Osborn)